O Whereforth Art Thy Wisdom?
Jealousy is such a strong word, but I admire those bloggers who get
lots of comments posted on their entries, and I wish to earn such
privilege too on my dotph blog. It’s very barren here and I could use
more excitement.
Desperate for attention, I decided to add my list of contacts to the
friends page of my dotph blog (this can be done on the Dashboard Tab
way above) so as to be able to notify-slash-annoy my friends whenever I
post new entries. Alas, because of some weird technical difficulties, I
couldn’t export my yahoo messengers’ contact to my friend’s list, so I
had to type each emails individually.
Doing that was not only toilsome, but also depressing. I don’t often
have many reasons to look at my yahoo messenger’s contacts, and I wish
I hadn’t looked today. Frankly the amount of contacts I have on my list
is just an illusion of grandeur: I’m not close to a lot of my online
friends. Only a few on my list of "friends" are people who I am willing
to be stuck with in the same elevator.
Is this their fault? No. That’s what makes it more painful. My
immediate realization is in knowing that I don’t go out enough. It’s
not that I don’t like having fun (I do), but I am so busy it’s not even
funny. I keep recalling that, way back in high school, I was a more
outgoing person and among the most adaptable to different cliques
(cliques to me are meaningless). What happened to that time? I miss
those carefree moments in my life where I can sit back, relax, kick my
feet up, and have long chats with friends.
So anyway, this is my most recent blog update. Did I end up annoying
you with this kind of whiny contents? My apologies. I still am trying,
but it’s not easy to nurture positive thoughts when I live a typical
twentysomething’s life that I despise. I wish I could ask someone out.
The world is not a playground, but having fun occasionally isn’t
so bad.
In the meantime, you can brighten up my day by posting comments.
